Monday Morning :: Fresh Start

I want to thank all of you for indulging me so kindly during all of that holiday madness. I certainly was obsessesed for a few weeks there, no?

I hope you understand that it was necessary for the happiness of my family and my own sanity. I decided at some point that if you can't beat 'em...well, you know.

Really, what I decided, was that I needed to stop fighting it all. That my lot in life (for now) is as chief cook and bottlewasher, and that by resisting this reality, I was only making myself miserable. Well, actually, that was the problem. Not only myself miserable.

So I threw myself into the happy holidays, and you know what? They were. Happy. I felt, internally, a loosening of something that used to be wound pretty tightly. The anxiety melted a little. Maybe, I fulfilled my one wish for this season.

And here we are, on the other side. With as much eagerness as I put out all the holiday finery, I have put it all away, now. The tree is on the curb (and not in a plastic bag...can someone please explain that to me?), the windowsills are cleared off, and the tabletops are pared down. The red and forest green in the house are back to a bare minimum.

We're back in the pink. And white. Soft greens. Pale, pale blues.

I think this is a perfect time to reassess what we have around us, and perhaps start fresh. Even if in small ways. A new tablecloth, or switched around furniture. I once read somewhere that if you went through every room and put three things away it would make a big difference.

It does. I'm making a little more room around here. Room to think, room to breathe. Room to settle in and enjoy the space in front of me.

More tomorrow. Thanks for reading.

tt