Monday, April 13, 2009

Expectations

Sometimes it's hard for me to reconcile things as they are with things as they were.

There is something about traditions and rituals from your childhood that seem so important, simply because they got there first. They stick with you as being what should be, rather than just, simply, what was.

So, I approach most holidays with a basketful of expectations. I realize now, though, that those expectations are wholly mine, and not my girls'. That they are-we are-smack dab in the middle of creating their own set of memories and traditions. That the vague sense of disappointment I carry with me, for example, over not having an elaborate Easter celebration, is about me, not them.

And that what all of us need is a little less baggage, and whole lot more joy.

So. Here are a few small, sparkly moments that happened yesterday, even without a ginormous hollow chocolate bunny, a fancy new dress, or a petting zoo.

::Anna's eyes as wide and blue as the sky, when she found jelly beans waiting for her in the morning.

::The sight of Tim and Anna painting blown-out eggs.

::The sun shining brightly, and even though there was a chill wind, planting some seeds.

::A nap.

::Happy girls coming home, happy to be home.

::Genuine appreciation of the table I had set: "oh, look, this is so pretty!"


::The girls staging an egg hunt for each other, over and over, with seven hard boiled eggs.

::Sincere thank yous.

::Looking at their faces. Yesterday, and always, always, always.

My cup runneth over.

More tomorrow. Thanks for reading.
tt

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4 Comments:

Anonymous Alexis said...

Lovely. I wish you could come decorate my house for the holidays!

April 13, 2009 2:16 PM  
Blogger julochka said...

we were totally non-traditional too, but i realized there is so much freedom in it. i felt light as a feather...

love those yellow flowers in that bowl. :-)

April 13, 2009 3:59 PM  
Blogger tangled sky studio said...

i love creating new traditions for my family (like having a scoop of ice cream for breakfast on birthdays) but when we spend a holiday with my parents as we did this easter....i always feeling like i'm trying to fit a holiday into a mold.....

April 15, 2009 6:31 PM  
Anonymous Kathleen said...

See, and your Easter activities sound so lovely and complete! We put such an effort into Passover this year that Easter slipped by... I feel all kinds of guilt about betraying my heritage, denying my children the traditions of Easter outfits and Sunday church, but I also know that THIS is what they know, and what they love, and what they'll remember.

April 16, 2009 8:34 AM  

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