So, today was a trial. A few doctors appointments. Some of them mine.
A few tears. Ditto.
A friend said "stop torturing yourself." Because I do. Don't you? Don't you wake up at three a.m. and start fretting, sure that you can't possibly wait until the morning to start setting things right?
A friend said "maybe you don't have to do all of it, right now." Because I'm sure I need to. Right now. Not later. Now.
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And then,
Callie.
Again.
I know it was just because the crowd had shifted out in the park, and she was bored.
But she rescued me.
She came in and said "can I help?"
She chopped and she sauteed and she cried (onions). And she learned (how to cut an onion.)
Mostly, she just stood in the kitchen with me.
And then,
Lindsey.
She came in and said "oh! can I set the table?"
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Look, this is not the way it goes, all the time.
But, tonight,
they rescued me.
Isn't it supposed to be the other way around?
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In the doctor's office, I read an article while I waited that said that happiness is not found in having all the material things one wants, but in having "successful interpersonal relationships."
Fancy.
But,
I'll buy that.
More tomorrow. Thanks for reading.
tt
p.s. tears unrelated to the doctors' appointments. just to save you any unnecessary fretting.
p.p.s. are you tired of leaf pictures yet?
posted by Tara Thayer at
8:10 PM
8 Comments:
Whew, you had me worried with the tears and doctor visits. You have some fantastic girls Tara and I think they probably feel good knowing they rescued you a bit. Don't you?
no, i'm not tired of them, they're lovely.
and i know about the 3:00 panic attacks, so no - you don't want to end up there.
hope tomorrow is a happier day.
never tired of leaf photos. they're the best part of autumn.
& i hope for tomorrow that you feel refreshed + renewed xoxo
in fact, i was up at three am torturing myself (but no one offered to chop something up or set the table tonight). I really like your new blog style (did i mention that before...i seem to be forgetting things) anyways love the photos, the writing and the bits of things your sharing these days.
Pleased too that the doctors visits and the tears are unrelated. And it's good to be rescued sometimes....hope tomorrow is better-the weekend!
Wishing you a weekend without tears and worries. Your girls sound perfectly Little House On The Prairie-ian to me. Congrats on that!
I'm always awake when I should be sleeping and that's what children are for at times...to rescue us and remind us that it will be okay.
much happiness that the tears and doctors have nothing to do with themselves today!
one of our potty books (remember those?) says, at the end, "don't worry if you don't get it right the first time... you'll get another chance."
a revelation! you will always have another chance to pee in the potty, and you will always have another chance to keep it together, to be calm and cool, to get it right.
xoxox
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