Friday, January 15, 2010




another winter weekend looms, with not much going on. i go upstairs and prop myself up on my elbow inches from tim's pillow. are you sleeping?

"um."

we need a plan. and we need more joy. we are blowing it. time is short. time is fast. we have everything anyone could want right here, and we are blowing it.

(one eye open.)

our stress, while not of our own choosing, is of our own making, to some degree. let's ignore the things we can't control, and crumple up and light a match to the stress we bring on ourselves.

"yes. um. when are we doing this?"

now. yesterday. we need to be joyful. i need to be joyful, or else it all becomes laundry and lost mittens and asking five times of someone what should be done on the first go. all worry. no happy.

"but we have stress. life is hard." (both eyes open now.)

it isn't about not having stress, or pretending life isn't hard. it's about finding the joy anyway. (i'd had a lot of tea this morning.)

"how do the french say it?"

joie de vivre.

"@#$%& !"

ok, then: joy.

"ok, then."

::

bring me:
good long walks and talking and laughing. maybe even embarrassing, snorting laughter. chocolate cake and fresh paint. back rubs and girls telling me about their day. dark red wine and second helpings. new books and guitars and kissing. movies set in paris. quiet. good bread. a task done. friends stopping by. toast. napping. big sweaters. real mail. around the block once before bed. pasta. old photos. new music. berries in a berry bowl. warmer winds. longer light. love.

joy. happy weekend! thanks for reading.
tt

19 Comments:

Blogger RW said...

wow.
this is very good.

January 15, 2010 1:00 PM  
Blogger Denise | Chez Danisse said...

Wow, wonderful...all of it. The images, the conversation, the requests. Real mail, now that's a good one, and toast. It's a wise woman who appreciates real mail and toast. I have the feeling many of these requests will be coming to you this weekend. Enjoy them.

January 15, 2010 1:38 PM  
Blogger Char said...

i like your list...may i borrow it please?

January 15, 2010 3:08 PM  
Anonymous betsy said...

Thank you for your posts this week, Tara. They have spoken to me on so many levels. Here's to joy and also jumping right in, sometimes together at the same time...xo

January 15, 2010 3:22 PM  
Blogger Amy said...

I wish listing joyful items could make them so. I don't find it always that simple. I wish I did.

January 15, 2010 4:38 PM  
Blogger spread your wings said...

yes to all those things.
the light IS getting longer ; )

January 15, 2010 4:52 PM  
Blogger tangled sky studio said...

spot on tara...may you find a few of these wishes in the coming weekend (and save a few for unexpected moments later in the week...).

January 15, 2010 5:46 PM  
Blogger house on hill road said...

your outlook on living inspires me, tara.

January 15, 2010 7:42 PM  
Blogger Grey Cottage Studio said...

Tara,
I feel like I'm getting redundant with the comments on your posts. Again, beautiful. Too bad you can't "favorite" posts like you can photos.

Jill

January 15, 2010 7:50 PM  
Blogger beki said...

love love LOVE!!! I need to take this to heart. Thank you.

January 15, 2010 8:19 PM  
Blogger Oliag said...

Such a beautiful post...such a wonderful list...

January 15, 2010 11:56 PM  
Blogger Victoria said...

amen and amen!

January 16, 2010 11:10 AM  
Blogger Tabatha said...

Very beautiful!
Pictures & Words.
Thank you for sharing.

January 16, 2010 5:32 PM  
Anonymous molly said...

oh man. this is so. so. good. every time i visit your blog my spirits are lifted.

January 16, 2010 8:54 PM  
Blogger Mommy of three said...

I love this post.
I am pregnant, but it made me cry.
I would have cried anyway.
Thank you.
Such beautiful thoughts.
Greta

January 17, 2010 12:35 AM  
Blogger knitgurl said...

You struck a nerve. Thanks. It needed it...

January 17, 2010 1:58 PM  
Blogger peachey said...

happy weekend.
&
thanks for writing.

January 17, 2010 3:37 PM  
Blogger tara said...

i needed this today, so much. thank you. and hello!

January 20, 2010 1:13 PM  
Blogger Jane said...

well that made me cry....because you said exactly what I've been trying to tell my husband.

January 21, 2010 6:11 PM  

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